Friday, December 13, 2013

Guilt and Melancholy

     As my blog title suggests, I'm a bit of a hermit, which means that I don't leave my house much. Heck, I hardly even leave my room. For some inane reason, I thought that I'd actually have something interesting to post on a regular basis when I first started this blog. Judging by my lack of posts these past few months, I don't. I know that a blog is usually a sort of online diary, but silly me, I told people that I actually know that I was writing a blog. Now, I'm totally fine with sharing my personal feelings and thoughts with dozens of strangers on the internet whom I will probably never meet, I'm not so comfortable with people that I actually know thinking knowing that I'm crazy. Because as it is now, when I have a scintilla of a melancholy moment and write something just to vent a little to get it out of my system, I get bombarded with questions on how I'm feeling, which I hate. The reason I'm telling you this is because I'm about to vent a smidgen, and if you know me and think that you're going to want to talk to me about it, then stop reading right now. You can, however, leave a comment if you wish to. Because while I don't actually like talking to people, I do like reading from them/you. Now for my venting time.


   Have your parent ever used the guilt card on you? They probably have, most parents do, I assume. What bothers me is the fact they even think that there's a need for it. It's like they think that if they just ask me to do the favor out of the goodness of my heart, that I'll refuse. Like I have no goodness in my heart so obviously they have to bring up the latest kind thing that they did for me like some sort of barter system. It hurts, a lot. I'm not going to say "If I ever have kids, I'll never try to guilt them into things!" because I'm pretty sure that would be a blatant lie. But I will say that I would do my best to believe in my child enough to hope that they won't need to be guilted into doing a kindness for others.


Oh yeah, I'm moving again next week. I'm going to be closer to the coast again! ♥